Hardship.

I would say, so far in my life, I always face hard times. Maybe this is the cause that I’m not appreciate.. well its not that I’m not appreciate anything in my life. Its just that I should be more grateful on everything that I had. Maybe I should start my own life quickly so that I can feel the hardship and realize how hard it is actually to have what I have now.

Back to original story, maybe this is the time for me to stay sober and stop thinking about the samsa's realted thing. Later, if they come again, I’ll try to work it out. I don't really care about myself. No matter what, I need to get more focus on my study. No offense to everyone. This is just me and how I feel about myself. I know sometimes we get stupid. And now is the time to fix everything. God’s willing.